She makes that comment about how she looks, and yes, she is
beautiful, I bashfully look away for a second. A little self-conscious.
But she sees me beaming as she says we can be friends, it's just something I've wanted to hear for so long... if on…
That feels nice. I glance at her pretty face and you know, it feels like the girl's warming up to me. Ahem. I take the magazine and slide it into my weapon with a satisfying 'click' I haven't heard on some time. Yeah. That feels nice. Rack the weapo…
I nibble my lip as the talks, it's a little bit hard to hide the tiny smile that's been hovering around my face since a few minutes ago.
"She took our picture, didn't she? That could be weird..." really could be, especially if I'm supposed to be de…
Something clicks, she probably sees a little glint of excitement in my eyes, "are there more of us? Vampires like you... around? Who else knows about this? Eventide?What's up with her anyway?"
So many questions flood my head, from this morning to t…
On the contrary, I look excited. Almost happy, like it explains everything, this weird inexplicable memory of my death just suddenly fits.
"You're lucky then..." a weak smile, I've obviously not had it as easy. "I woke up alone in the showers... m…
Yeah that makes me smile and almost-laugh. But she's not joking, is she? My smile slowly fades away.
"For real?" Again I glance at the bloody mirror and it seems to suddenly mean so much more. "Then you did... I wasn't dreaming. You did that, when …
I exhale a breath, "well I have been wondering." I glance to the door where Eventide left a few moments before.
I cross my arms and peer at her curiously, and glance again at the broken mirror.
"You're not a ghost like me. I'm pretty sure of tha…
I nervously nibble on my lip, "email? To my... no... no I was going to write a..."
It's ridiculous to even say such a thing. But damn it, I have to take control of this situation. I'm dead, nothing can change that.
"I'm going to write a suicide …
"Heh... good one," I comment, though I don't have a clue what she's fucking talking about. She sure is cute when she says it though.
I hold out a hand, "Give 'em over. If I can help deplete Ringside's personal wealth then I'll be happy to deliver '…
I want to say something as Eventide leaves the room but I barely know her. And Lali and her seem to be having a fight... or something.
Lali makes me think, though. It's obvious that she's more than she admitted, she wasn't just with me by accident.…
It doesn't seem like Eventide believes me, even though I told the honest truth. I sort of stutter and look to Lali, who suddenly seems serious. Really serious, and different somehow.
This doesn't feel right, and I sort of stand there aghast as Lali…
I feel I have to say something. I don't like to see girls fight, even though it seems to happen quite a lot around here.
"It's not like that," I raise a hand to Eventide, who I don't feel I was ignoring... but... ok maybe a little. I have trouble me…
As we make our way to deck 7, following Nbeke's trail, it seems, I think about how we've followed such different paths. Nbeke is a strong motherfucker, right? Well, so am I, but in a different way. He puts it out there, I kind of keep my badassnes t…
"Look, I'm trying... ok this all just dumped on me all at once," I take a step away, look at the mirrors and remember John. Consider telling her, but not until I understand.
Lali knows more than she's admitting. We'll talk about this when Eventide…
Well thats... it doesn't seem like Lali wants to answer my question. She made me? What is that supposed to mean? She was with me... but.
I look at Eventide. Lali doesn't want her to hear something either. Maybe I should be careful what I say.
I r…
You think i didn't notice? I've been very deliberately noticing Umbra's right places since before the day I defrosted her. Quite happy to finally get the excuse, and I haven't been disappointed with the result.
Fucking sexy, my friend. Even if her…
I follow Lali's words, nodding as she sort of tells me how it is. I feel some confidence from her, some comfort in her assuredness. But I start to wonder how it is that she's so calm about this. She talks like she knows... and Eventide and those wei…
That takes the my breath away, and I freeze up a second with a look at Lali, who of course knows.
"It was... it was an accident..." I lie, my voice trembling. There's no way I could just say what I did. No way.
I all but fall into a chair. Realizing Eventide has seen everything, the glass remains broken and slightly bloodied.
"Yeah, I don't..." I look at Eventide, Lali, and back. "Please I don't even know how to explain all this... my mother... I glance to…
Gun? The hoard (not that I'd refer to it as that) doesn't care about things like guns. Weapons are not a thing down there in the maze. There's almost never anyone around but me and the quiet ones. So... hey are you saying I got the gun from the hoar…
I don't show my disappointment on my face, just my fingers twitch a bit and I hold the pose a second before withdrawing my hand. I'll let her believe she's right.
For now.
"Ok, Umbra. You hold onto that tight," she's launch crew. She no doubt has …
An uneasy tremble settles over me as you give me a little space. I look at you with desperate eyes. A glance at Eventide but you have me, Lali.
"What do I do? Oh my God... what do I do?"
A pained smile spreads across my face and I open my mouth but can't say anything right now. Yes, we're not friends, we both feel that... but I don't care. I suddenly throw my arms around Lali, my chin on her shoulder. My bloody hands around her.
I…
I turn from the broken mirror, blood trickling from my palms.
"I'm here, Lali! I'm here!" It's not like Lali and I are friends, really... but she was there when I died. And she's here now. She came to find me. She wants to see me...
Suddenly witho…
She can't hear. What are they doing?
I see the candle, the strange drawing and for a second I'm repulsed and it's hard to believe what I'm seeing... but. Really not that hard to believe considering.
My first instinct is to blow out the candle, but…
I don't move. I don't want to run into my mother again. It hurts to see her. You know that? I went through so many weird changed while following her around and finally realized that I can't just go back to being her daughter. I'm dead. And I don't t…
Yes something is holding me back, Gateway's one of Jackal's little family right? And you know they've been trying to get me to come out to one of their little parties. Well... I would be happy to participate except that would leave Jackal some prope…
Breathless, I touch a hand to my chest.
He did... he did...
I take a deep breath and let it out like I've been holding it for ages. A broken smile on my face, stress and sadness and this whole thing just suddenly make me almost collapse. I lean ba…
My lip quivers a bit as I watch them go. And I stand, shaking my head and feeling very alone. I lower my face into my hands and sniffle back my feelings. Then I look up to see John watching me... watching my reflection.
Is he watching me?
"John?" …
It's. Pretty didappointing when i don't touch her. Despite trying. But the ring? Ok... I think I get this. I think.
I reach out my hand to touch the ring, cupped, like I'm going to gently pull on it...
But I stop. Wait...
What am I even going to …