Silica
"Bullshit, there ain't no more marshmallows, no more skittles or fuckin' 'nila wafers... whatever he fuck that is, right?" I laugh a little and look up at his eyes but he's givin' me this laser-scope look. He comes closer, I stay put though.…
Silica
He don't know how good he's got it. I smile and look around the room, another world.
He tells me about skittles, "that's crazy shit... wish I could fuckin' eat that..." I look up, imaging. lick my lips a little, then suddenly something pops…
Silica
Quietly I listen. I could listen to Hadden just talk for like... forever. Talk about tomatoes, Hadden, sounds like fuckin' music.
I lean across and touch it with my tongue, my eyes widen. "Holy shit!" I take a breath through my teeth and ma…
Silica
I shrug, shaking my head sadly, "you know it right? All fucked up..." he can definitely see that there's more but you know... Kaykay was ok to me for once in our lives and maybe she does have a future with Hadden... I don't want to tell him …
Silica
I lean my ass on my hands, keepin an eye on the door. I return his look for a couple seconds but have trouble keeping it. Look down, but keep glancing.
"Yeah... but you know..." I swallow, "I don't think I should work with Kaykay any more..…
Silica
Slash leaves the room and I like... relax a step, leaning against the table from Hadden to look at him.
He says... what the fuck? I just start giggling, "what the fuck Hadden? There ain't a wild polar bear for like... forever..."
Ice brea…
Silica
Yeah you know, this ain't bad. Eventually I spill out of Slash's hands and keep helping as best I can for a while... eventually I probably just end up standin' there looking awkward. I really don't know the first shit about real cooking.
Bu…
Silica
Hadden gets a little smile out of me with that one, as I look at him across the table and then down at Slash's hands on my wrists or whatever as he guides me. Fuck it's gettin' hot in here...
"Yeah... I'm stayin," I look up at Slash, he got…
Silica
Fuck, I suck at this... self conscious. Hope nobody notices... but... yeah. Obvious.
Yeah that ain't bad at all. Feel that breath through my hair and everything... I make sure to glance up at him a few times. Maybe my cheek rubs against the…
Silica
Little bit of weed speakin, of course... like Hadden said. Not totally blasted but a little bit takes the edge off.
"Pfft.." I do that little dismissive wave thing, "yeah, sure... I cook like a motherfucker."
I don't... I can feed myself b…
Silica
Hadden asks and I glance up at Slash for a second, then a little-too-big smile and back to Hadden. A thought I really... really should not be having runs through my head and I actually blush slightly.
"Soo..." I say, tilting my head and loo…
Silica
Relieved.... I finally let out the breath I've been holding and drop the bird to sway on its string and lean back against the table there and say under my breath, "holy shit..." A little laugh at myself for looking so fuckin' stupid...
And …
Silica
Yes, I fuckin' know Lunch from another bird. Stupid thing's been followin' me all the fuck over right? Even took a shot at it once when it got close enough to my bait... took half a feather off the left wing. I'd know Lunch if I seen it. But…
Silica
I smile at Haddie and then try and catch one last glimpse of hs brother but then I see that...
Is that...?
I just stare for the second it takes for him to pass into the kitchen and out of sight... suddenly I get up and all but run to the …
Silica
I watch Hadden's Brother walk past, my head turning as he goes... lookin hot... brother huh? Then Haddie walks in and you know he's lookin' at me like that and it's a little startling.
I sit up a little bit, "I ain't fuckin' high Haddie!" I…
Silica
Yeah well... I lean back down into the seat and lower my hand.
I smile and flash her my personable middle finger with a little sideways grin, "hey fuck you, Lashie, I ain't answerin' questions for treats." I settle back against the sofa and…
Silica
Wow... they got some kinda thing goin' on huh. I play it casual, breathin' in her smoke. I gesture with a hand as I talk, "baby loke been all up in my business these days, too... gotta ride along right?" Does she know Kaykay's been working w…
Silica
Gotta laugh, this girl talks nice. Makes me smile.
I'll take a hit of the joint, sitting up to take it from her then leaning way back to drag on it, feet up along the edge of the sofa like it belongs to me.
I hand it back before answering.…
Silica
"Pfft," I scoff playfully, "'least you got a place to fuckin' clean, right?"
I see her havin' trouble with the lighter and hold out a hand as if to catch it, "hey lemme see that." If I'm good at anything doin' all the shit I've done. It's …
Silica
Patented? Hell no... yeah yeah, ok, I'm skinny... you try livin' without a roof over your fuckin' head and see how fat you get.
"Sure I'll bite that," I say, walkin in and slipping onto the couch from the back. Feet up on the coffee table o…
Silica
I make a hmmm face and nibble my lip. "You doin' fuckin' broccoli, girl?" I look up and back, "I'm guessin' your brotha ain't cool with that..." but I smile.
"I'll come in for a bite," I take a step but stop, a hand on the edge of the door …
Silica
What the fuck, girl, this is the shirt you gave me!
"Uhhh... just lookin' for Haddie, supposed to be on the job..." I must look a little confused. Usually ain't this hard to find him... I break a little smile though, tuggin' at the hoodie a…
Silica
She had me worried there for a big, asshole gang makin' trouble? But yeah, that sounds like Haddie. Talk 'em down... guess he's got his shit back.
But... is that Stinky's sledders? Fuck them
"That right? Fuck... Haddie's got a helluva tong…
Silica
Oh... uh. He was teeny? I almost laugh trying to imagine.
"Just got some business for the boss baller," I keep it cool, bite my lip to keep from giggling. "You know where he at?"
Silica
Feels weird, being down here again like this on my own. I have a little sly smile I can't explain and some kind of unexplained confidence in my step. Like... like...
Shit I'm a terrible person... I shake my head and know I should feel shitt…
Silica
Where do you park a truck? I don't know.... where's Hadden park the thing? Yeah, right there.
I don't wanna go through the mines so we'll head through the market. Got my incognito getup on, hair tucked under my hood and down my back, shades…
Silica
I slowly walk away from the door. My feet crunch on the icy snow as I go... how did this happen? You ain't fuckin' ok.
I get to the truck and stop there for a second, a hand up on the handle. I let out a breath, almost a cry, and rest my h…
Silica
Hearing her thoughts... how the fuck... but this is bad. Why does she want me? Sure... it felt good that night but... there's nothing there right? It's not like I've been nice... and it's not like I was even good in... I fuckin' sucked in be…
Silica
She meets my eye... yeah, she's so good on her own.
Hitec's gonna blame me for this shit... HP too probaly. Yeah I'll get Kaykay to the fuckin' door.
I pull her down from the truck and help her when she stumbles, I get close to her face a…
Silica
Why am I pissed at her? She's just tryin' to... I don't know... make me like her? Be like me? Fuck... who the fuck would want that kinda shit.
She lays down, her head up against my thigh... she feels cool. Is this how I feel to all those fu…