Silica
I see that look on her face and shake my head.
"Come on, it's not like I'm gonna walk up to 'em and start shootin'" I don't even own a gun, "and fuck my sister. Ok? I'm not her fucking problem... she's made that clear."
We walk, it takes a…
Silica
There's so many things I want to say to K2, but I care about what her mom thinks so I keep my mouth shut. I watch K2 go and can't help but think that it must be great to have a mom like that... lucky bitch.
We walk slowly up the hall togeth…
Silica
I deliberately ignore K2, which will probably bother her even more.
The sounds from up the tunnels have me visibly on edge and I can't help but stare up the tunnel like a fucking monster might come around the corner. What else don't I like?…
Silica
K2's around my age, give or take, and we liked this guy when we were younger. He ended up choosing her cause of the ice I was just getting into at the time turned him off... I admit it. I lost my shit, went off her, ended up scratching three…
Fucking bird.
Damn, none of Frontside's people around... guess I'll find Hadden or someone on his crew. Oakley or Handplant... I don't feel like dealing with that asshole Molotov right now. Now today.
So I'll check Hadden's usual places before lo…
The walk tires me out a little so I lay in the snowbank a little bit before climbing up to rest and also to make sure nobody's followed me. Up on the roof I see that owl. "Hey lunch," I say as I dig out my stash from the icy snow. Damned melt a few …
It's weird at first. Being outside, and watching him go. I could get used to having someone like him around. He's a good guy... but he does have those angry bursts, they're scary even when not directed at me, and I know he may lose control sometimes…
Silica
Poke and Wonky bring home a diet of root vegetables, starch, calorie-heavy stuff like potatoes and turnips grown underground. A bit of fish now and then. Usualy cooked up into a stew over a fire... something I help with at least while I'm he…
I start to get up and he just pushes me back down against the wall near the bed. My first reaction is to lash out, and I sort of swipe at him, but in my state... even on a good day I doubt I could stop him.
I try to rise again as he shouts 'what t…
I close my eyes for a second and shake my head slightly, "I don't know anybody," I shrug and just look up at him, "you saw what it's like... at the doc's. I'm nobody... it just seemed..." I smile a little ironic smile, my teeth showing for a second …
I roll over onto my back so I can see him, hissing in pain when I forget for a second and twist my leg the wrong way, but I end up with my head leaning up against his thigh and a foot on the frame of the bed.
I reach up and touch his cheek, "you're…
Wonky's finished, exhausted for the moment. I end up resting with my head on his thigh as he lays across the bed and against the wall with his hand on the narrow part of my waist. My hand slowly traces up and back down the big muscle of his upper le…
Doesn't bother me... surprises me maybe. Mostly people don't use very nice words with me, sex or not.
So yeah, repayment, favor, whatever you want to call it. I don't have a lot of energy right now so I'm pretty gentle with him... do it right. But …
I lay there a second, almost amused at this guy's timidness. Is he a virgin? No fucking way... that's just not possible.
Instead of pulling him down towards me, instead I pull myself up to his shoulder and say quietly in his ear, "you saved me..." …
Not exactly luxurious, but it'll do.
I sit and relieve myself, leaning my face in my hands, elbown on knees. I feel my breath on my palms, it's cool again. Good. My stomach is turning a little bit but I think the worst is past. I wipe at my eyes, …
I don't feel great, but the biggest problem is the pain... and oh man, I need to pee and I'm still feeling kind of nauseous.
I hold there on his face for a few seconds, feeling him stop and press against me. I don't want to take the moment away fro…
I know that.
I can't help stifling a laugh by nibbling on my lip.
"Help me get 'em back off then, will ya?" I pull on his hand to get him to kneel again and help with my jeans, then I lean forward a little and touch his hair and a around the side…
Silica
This is going to hurt.
I turn to face him, dropping down to sit on the bed. My leg aches and I can't quite bring myself to pull my tight jeans up past that bandage.
For a good while I sit there, looking up at his face. He helped me earnest…
Silica
Sure, sure I take the food. Might as well get in deeper. As he tells me about the place I grab my shirt and go to the bed. I set the dates and my ice packets down, and facing away from him, remove the yellow shirt over my head and start gett…
Silica
Wonky, ok, it's him at least. Not like I can really trust the man but it seems like he kept his word. Are these his clothes? He changed me huh? Better than not I guess.
I relax slightly against the shelving, the ice starting to flow. I can …
Silica
I grab a handful of the little paper squares of ice and pop a couple of them in my mouth, working the familiar shapes down in between my gums and my cheek. Oh yes... I lean one hand against the the dresser and fight the chills and the growin…
Silica
It only takes a moment to realize where I am, but seconds later I know that it's been too long. Days? Has it been? Could it have been? Without ice I'm not even myself... if it's been so long that I even feel cold. Suddenly the chills will ov…
Silica
I look at Wonky. I don't know how my life ended up in his hands... I was fucking stupid outside today, that's how. But I have to trust him just this one time.
As Need gives me the drug, I finally let Wonky lower me to the table or whatever,…
Silica
Knock me out? Knock me out here?
I look at the table of sharp tools sitting in the steaming hot water, the blood on the floor and walls... and ceiling? I didn't want this to happen...
"Ok... " I reach out to Wonky, holding him by the coll…
Silica
His expression doesn't really change, he's not impressed. What a day.
"Come on man, I aint got much left," I consider giving him a cube. The good stuff, right from the source, too. But I'm going to need it. I don't think I'll be too light o…
Silica
He clears the way like some fucking hero, I need one.
Finally I climb up into the van, the tip of my shoe slipping off the edge a couple of times until Wonky has to help me up.
He demands jingle... of course he does. I reach into a pocket…
Silica
"I don't trust anyone to mark me," I answer as we roll to a stop. Maybe I'll see more of his tats some day. Probably will.
As we approach, I squirm out of his grasp to stand on my own. l slide down to the cold pavement, landing on my good f…