Silica
Yeah, I love this... it's cold out here Haddie and I'm plenty chill... you know how when I come in for the day I got frost on my skin... how's that feel, babe? He pulls me close onto his lap, I wrap my legs around and grind into him a little…
Silica
Oh yes, Hadden flips me around, his hands on my legs burn, hot... so good. I look up at his face, at those hungry eyes. This little mischievous grin on my face... I fuckin' enjoy this moment... it's really going to happen.
"All you gotta do…
Silica
I lean up into his kiss, damn I've wanted this so fuckin' long... since he pulled me out of that hole. It's amazing... he smells good, he tastes good. I make a little satisfied sound, weeks of denying that I want this melt away... yeah...
B…
Silica
This feels so fucking good. Nobody for fuckin' miles, Hadden warm and hard against me... damn it I'm melting... I press back against him, his hand holding mine firm on the handle like he's taking control, even that turns me on. Haddie how do…
Silica
He's gettin' all thoughtful... Haddie bein' Haddie.
Fuck, I ain't got much time left, gotta get T-Dog his jingle... all I got that's worth shit is my ice, or this fuckin' sled... but... you know I'm gettin' used to this fuckin' thing.
I se…
Silica
I ain't driving yet, just sitting there, one hand on a handlebar. He makes that quip and I'm about to tell him to fuck off and he can see the flash of expression on my face, but he keeps talkin.
"Shit Haddie, I don't know what the fuck I wa…
Silica
I stand as the sled coasts, slowing enough to make it easier to talk at least, "shit there ain't nothin' out here to hit Haddie!" I stay standing, leaning my ass back against his shoulder and turning to talk to him. "Somethin' like two big c…
Silica
Coasting, I stand up tall in the seat, check my back pockets... yeah giving Hadded a face full of my ass but I ain't thinkin' about that.
"Someone jacked my ice... my stash for sale..." I turn, still standing in the saddle and look back, li…
Silica
Shit, nobody's buyin... underlake fucked up, nobody makin' the crossing... the hell happened anyway? Somethin' blew the fuck up right?
So burnin' across the lake, fast... that feels good. What the fuck is T-Dog gonna do anyway? He needs me…
Silica
Yeah yeah, Ice. I haven't forgotten, just... burnin' shit and dead fuckers kind of got me distracted. Hadden's goin' off to him propa ok, and you know that ain't my thing... fuckin' excuses. I feel like I fucked up, why the fuck would Oakley…
Silica
He's hit hard and goes to his friend... it hurts. Really hurts to see Hadden so crushed. Maybe if I hadn't stopped... maybe if I'd guessed better where... I can barely speak and there's no way he hears me... "Hadden... I...."
I shake my hea…
Silica
As we near I slow, my energetic walk suddenly becoming a slow, slow advance. Then I stop when I see the dead. My hands come up to my mouth, "holy shit..." is all I can manage to force out, a little whine escapes the back of my throat, almost…
Silica
He's got a plan, not much of one but it's Hadden right? It'll work out.
I hop off the sled set a foot against the tread while the motor idles and I pull out my lightning bolt shirt. I squirm into it, hands over head, and pull each sleeve wi…
Silica
That's good... if my iron's in my hand I fucked up. He makes that what.. offer? To pay for what I did? Gotta see my shakin' my head a bit, "don't think you can pay off what I done in nothin' but blood..."
Hope I'm wrong. Hadden can make mag…
Silica
He's a little fidgety huh? Makes me smile ever so slightly, "you know I got my shit here..." I reach a foot around the side and kick my bag with a heel, "you walkin' us into a fight here, Haddie?" Can't help but look a little nervous, "we ca…
Silica
Interrupting, I kinda look at him then down at the sled, "yeah where the fuck you think I got it?"
Jester... why does he keep comin' up? Reminds me.... and yeah I'm very aware that my leg is right there up against his warm thigh.
I step o…
Silica
We're riding fast through the streets now... little faster than we oughta, right? He's lovin' it... I let out a "woooo!" a time or two, feeling his energy. Do I like it? Yeah well... I kinda grin quietly to myself and shake side to side a bi…
Silica
The fuck? Hadden just show up out here in the middle of fuckin' nowhere? Like it's meant to be... I glance up at Lunch... yeah, somethin' about that owl and chance meetings. Hadden might'a caught me hollerin' like nobody's listening, though.…
Silica
Why the fuck am I up on the lake? You know I've been sayin' since the start of the start that sometimes i gotta get away. People shinin' too bright that I can't stand it. I never understood what the fuck though... but now it's startin' to ma…
Silica
He feels my head nodding, just a little, making a little sounds of agreement, 'yeah....' just a whisper.
I lean against him, feeling just a little weak. I've felt on top of the world since leaving HP's but it's just lyin' to myself. I'm fuc…
Silica
I nuzzle into him, my eyes wet and Hadden can feel a shudder or two but I'm not totally losing it... he rocks me and lifts me up a little which surprises me.
Hadden would smell me, sure... I don't go out of my way but I have been keepin' pr…
Silica
I start to say, "that's not f..." but he steps up to hold me. I let him draw me close... he's as warm as I knew he'd be... yeah he smells nice.
I lean into him, side of my face against his chest. Funny I'm thinking of the same moment... how…
Silica
His wheels are turning. But he doesn't laugh or freak out... ok. Still lookin' at me, still Hadden.
I keep my eyes on his, "no fuckin' joke." Dead serious, then a little saddish smile. I shrug my shoulders slightly like I don't know what th…
Silica
I sort of waver there, deciding what to say, if anything, about what's going on with me... he's gotta know right? If we're gonna... I mean.
I swallow hard and take a couple of deep difficult breaths, psyching myself up to say something, sta…