Silica
I sleep light, toss and turn a lot when it's too warm. If you shared my bed you'd end up with a foot in the small of your back and an elbow to the head. I sleep still as death out in the snow.
What the...
I wake and am assaulted by this..…
Silica
"No I'm good... this is... this is alright," I use her word, and I smile a little melancholy smile... and almost say more. But instead I just toss a leg over the back of the sofa and slip down onto the bedding, butt first, then lay back. One…
Silica
I look at her, "I mean I shouldn'ta gotten her involved... not now of all times but... I don't know what the fuck it is but it's... it's way more than just... it's way more than nothin' ok?"
I drop my pack on the floor and turn to lean aga…
Silica
Yeah I was gonna interrupt, I always do don't I.
I let her finish, but the moment she's done I speak up, "look.... I..." It's not easy to say this kind of shit, "I ain't worth it, H.P. I ain't..." she can see the hurt on my face... you kno…
Silica
I touch the doorframe again as I walk in, hesitating, but I go on in after she urges me.
She asks if everything it ok, I look towards K2's room before answering. Seems like she's asleep, "never..." I answer... that's what I always say. But.…
Silica
I get to my feet, touch Wonky on the cheek as I stand, my fingers sliding across his skin for the last time.
Grab my gear, get the fuck out of here. Heading back to HP's, same way I came.
Silica
My breath comes in deep, nervous bursts as I make my way into the darkness. My eye follows the dim circle of light across the floor, first finding the body of the Soulja girl... which makes me stop... then Wonky and his Kwaito...
"Oh fuck, …
Silica
Did that old flashlight have any juice? The one I found on the old soldier? Well... I'll use that... if not... uhh... I don't carry a lighter or anything. Guess I'll use the light from the door, let my eyes adjust if need be and just do my b…
Silica
The hell is going on? Something crazy and bad going on out by the lake, glad I came this way. Is there a fire? Must be a fire... maybe one of the 'scrapers lit up or something like that.
I crouch near the hatch... still open huh? "That ain'…
Silica
Careful like, right? Well... at least that's what I mean to do. Guess if I don't make the roll I get careless.... me, careless? That never happens, right?
Custom move:
(Rolled: 2d6+2. Rolls: 3, 5. Total: 10)
Silica
"Eeew" I make a face, "why would you even think of that?" I giggle, then take a deep breath, get my game face on and hit the streets.
I'm going to parallel the river, yeah maybe there's dangerous people out there but I should avoid the bigg…
Silica
HP gives me the gun and I almost gotta laugh a little. I pause with it in my hand like I'm gonna say something... HP can probably see a serious look on my face for a second here. After what just happened with Hitec... I want to ask if they'r…
Silica
I breath a little sigh of relief or something and smile... for some reason i glance at Handplant like... wow, did you see what I did? But of course she didn't... that's the point. I look back at Kaykay and it's hard not to look too excited.
…
Silica
Handplant tells me how it is, well whaddya know. I nod, no attitude here, she's being cool about it... though I totally expected some resistance.
She tells me to come back and I'm getting a little tired of people thinkin' I ain't, "I'm fuc…
Silica
I just kind of angrily mope there in the chair a little as HP goes on. She more or less apologizes, which gets a big exhaled breath and a little shake of the head. Yeah... bitchy. "Rough.. yeah..." I lean back in my chair, hang my head backw…
Silica
The anger burning in me, I cross my arms in a huff and throw myself back in the chair, which skids a couple inches loudly on the floor... totally fucking up my balance for a second I don't look nearly as cool as I meant to. I have to slap a …
Silica
Handplant sounds almost reasonable at first, you know... for a fuckin' old bitch right? But then everyone starts assuming things, like... even K2 right, telling me how it's gonna be on Hadden's crew and shit.
I kind of look between them mou…
Silica
It's hard for me to sit quiet as she goes on and I keep almost interrupting:
"But the guy was..." regarding the pier.
"No.. no no... I didn't fuckin' leave..." regarding Monarchs. I rise up out of my seat a little.
"Nobody fuckin' got it…
Silica
I'm leaning one elbow on the table, my forehead on my hand as I'm eating slow spoonfulls of stew. My eyes rise up to Handplant as she gives me her attention.
"Uhh..." just like that, "you know I was just... lookin' for Hadden... Think someo…
Silica
We walk out there, yeah, "together." I'm kind of surprised how little anyone seems to be saying about what we kind of obviously were up to. Or maybe they're just that clueless... wouldn't that be funny?
I sit at the table and start eating. …
Silica
I push my head back into the pillow so I can see her. For some reason the giggles are gone... like before it was all laughs but now I feel kind of strangely calm.
I nod slightly, quickly and answer her, "yeah.... yeah ok." I'll stay tonight…
Silica
Her hands, her body, her mouth... she's made me feel so good. The best I've ever felt? Maybe... could be. And she's fine... she's... she's totally fine. I look down at her face, a broad smile on my lips... then I pull her up to kiss her agai…
Silica
She's getting me there, totally... she climbs back up my body and asks me... I can only nod here in the near-darkness. There's no fucking words in my head right now as I begin to climax. I hungry grab her and kiss her, pulling her to my face…
Silica
Kaykay pulls the blankets over us, having pushed me onto my back in her bed. This feels more normal to me... looking up at her. She calls me silly and climbs on me and it's like I can't speak, everything is out of control. I'm fighting with …
Silica
I take a moment, just look up at her... help her with my clothes, my little owl shirt, my shorts... there's not much. I was just sleepin' right? And I sleep light.
So yeah, I got this... I can do this.
Silica
It's amazing.. and awkward, and if i weren't terrified of myself it would be great. But you know... I don't... I never felt this way for a girl before... I mean never in a way I could actually express . This is blowing my fucking mind.
Awkw…
Silica
Am I still in there? Fuck, how do you know?
I don't know either, but I kiss her... I kiss my old childhood friend and once enemy. I give myself to her faith in me. I won't hurt her... I know it. I couldn't. Right?
The emotions which have j…
Silica
She touches me gently, which is shocking, and good. She holds me, K2 holds me... she starts to make excuses and I shake my head against her shoulder, eyes tight shut. As young as she is I feel even less in control... she's telling me things …
Silica
I stay there straddling her, but she starts to pull away, close herself off... I don't know what to say. I want this, I fucking want this so much. But... damn it why do I have to give a fuck about her? K2 must be able to see it on my face...…