Silica
I don't say anything as he reaches past me to turn the the warm water on and I cringe just slightly as his hand brushes against my skin. He steps in as the water starts to warm, probably being sure to touch me, probably touching my back, kis…
Silica
I stand under the water rubbing my aching leg and Grab's memories flow into me almost like the water carries them. I can't look at him, fuck... how can I look at myself? What happened to his girl... I don't want to see it, it hurts, and it's…
Silica
Listen to the teevee.... listen... being shoved down into the mattres by his rhythmic thrusts, I just try to put my mind on the sounds from the old show. But you can't really ignore this... I try to look away but he gets into my head, I feel…
Silica
Fuck.
What a disaser, I've just given myself to him, to this bastard who would have killed me. Fine, I let him... he has his fucking way with me. I walked right into it like a fucking idiot. I don't cry, not really... but my eyes are cold a…
Silica
I break a smile when I see the kitten on the coffee mug. It's cute and I hold the cup by the very rim and handle (so I don't get my hands too warm) and look at it. But I barely touch the coffee. It smells good but I just can't take the warmt…
Silica
I'll take the coffee. I mean, it's not lethal or anything but I hate getting too warm, makes me light headed, I get headaches if I warm up too much. A comfortable room for the average person is pretty uncomfortable for me. And sitting in fro…
Silica
Shit.
Hoho's jab snaps my attention from the teevee, and I shoot back at him, "screw you, man... yeah I used that shit before, but i'm not a fuckin' snowman."
Hoho could mess this up, but Grab thankfully is pretty well sold on the idea of …
Silica
Ugh, it's hot, it stinks.... and Hoho. I have dark thoughts on my head as I walk up the hall, arm in arm with my would-be killer.
"Yeah, i'd love to have a bed tonight, Frontie, it's been ages since..." if I have a chance, I'll tag him with…
Silica
I get close, let him show his "possession" of me and wrap an arm around his waist to rest my hand above his hip.
"Yeah it's kinda weird out, isn't it?" Hoho, huh? Well that's not ideal. I don't like the bastard. Few times I've come through …
Silica
I play along, trying to look as cold and desperate as possible. It's not far from MY true feelings, I hate him. What I had to do to find him sucks... but I gotta do this. Hold it together Silica.
"Oh man that's awesome, you don't know how …
Silica
He wouldn't know me, really, but he may have seen me around out there. Guess he doesn't immediately recognize me from the shooting. Yeah why would he bother to know who has killing.
I approach, his indifference fueling my anger and his anxi…
Silica
It's good to be outside, the snow feels cool and perfect on my body and I know I've been inside too long. It makes waiting bearable, and my leg can use the rest.
There he is, and near dark, too... how perfect. He's even come alone? Finally …
Silica
Not what I had in mind. Hoho won't do for what I had in mind at all. But I make my way to the Crossing. It's dangerous there, as a kind of neutral zone between different areas of control. But not so much for someone like me. There's thieves,…
Silica
I spit his junk in an old coffee cup he has sitting there, feeling a little more than disgusted with myself. Bastard. Makin' me feel like shit after giving him his fun. I hold the resentment inside at least until he gives me the infomation.
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Silica
It's just ok, I mean I'm not doing this cause I like him. This is business. But he's a decent guy, keeps clean...ish. I've done worse things. Much worse.
Would like to skip the sex move when the sex isn't intimate, if thats ok?
Silica
Cant help but laugh at his little joke, sure.... I climb up into the back of the car. He's not the worst guy in the world but I really hope its worth it. I pull him in after me. Let's get it over with.
Silica, stop thinking about Wonky.
Silica
I put my hand on his, holding it on my leg, "Forty seventh? My sister's place is up there and I do not want to run into that bitch...how about..." I slide up, a little closer to his crotch, kind or motioning inside the car. "I show you some …
Silica
I bite my lower lip and run my hand up his leg, "I just want to know who your contact is, and when he comes by... so I can meet him on the quiet... you don't want your rep' getting mixed up with mine... right?"
I need to keep this quiet.
I…
Silica
So that's how it is. Yeah, I don't blame him for keeping his secrets.
I soften my smile as well as I'm able and step over to him. I kneel down behind the car to look up at him and rest a hand on his knee.
"Are ya sure Forum? I mean... guys…
Silica
I take a deep breath before walking into the market, meandering a bit before arriving at Forum's new stall.
"Hey, uh..." I don't really know quite how to put this. I've pawned stuff to him before... I mean that's how I make a living really…
Silica
The hurt between Rossi and me goes way back. Sure, occasionally we end up on the same side of something and we don't talk about it so maybe people just assume we're all good like sisters should be right? But we're not all good, probably neve…
Silica
Why the hell won't people just listen.
"Look H.P, I didn't ask for your opinion on my piece of shit sister," I stop walking, getting angry, "she's probably suckin' off some toothless bastard's prick up on forty-five and lookin' to forget I …