Sierra,
You wake to a thudding headache. Esco's gone, but Marigold is here. She's brought one of your books, and she's looking at the pictures.
What's the book?She's in a cotton yellow sundress and she's barefoot. When she sees you stir, she closes the book and pours you some water into a glass, bringing it over to you, brushing your hair back, helping you stand if you need it. What do you do?
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I try to move but my stomach lurches and I have to keel over the side and release the poison from my belly. "Oh..."I moan.
I try to sit up and Marigold is there to help me. When I feel her hands near my temple, moving my hair I flinch away. "No, 'Gold... leave me be."
Reaching out I manage to grab a hold of the water glass. It's precarious, but I do find the rim of the glass and take a few sips of water.
I really do feel rough.
"We can read it later, do you know what it's about?"
Sleeping with Esco? We've had sex. Once. I have slept here, twice? He's claimed to want to help me. Are we sleeping together? Is this ongoing? I haven't given it much thought - I haven't had time.
I open my eyes, risk a look at Marigold, she's lying on her side on the bed now. Her large blue eyes on me. I swallow hard. "It isn't about Esco."
I reach up and grab her hand, laying it flat against my cheek, keeping her from moving it, I'm too slow and stupid with poison to do much more. It's almost like she is cradling my face. It feels good to, but in a solid way. A way that might not drive me mad.
"Please, 'Gold." I say, "Don't."
I breathe out my nose and try to remember what she was saying. "So, you feeling Mot?"
"Sure. And riding with him's a blast." Marigold says, happy to have another subject to talk about. "Thing is, I wonder if I should... you know, ride with him. Just up and go. I could be his... what did Snake call it? His old lady."
"He seems like a good enough guy, though what he does it isn't very safe." I pat her hand, feeling more settled than when I first woke up, letting her hand have autonomy again. "But maybe that is some of it?" I say teasingly.
You hear a shotgun blast, Sierra. Marigold hops up, reaching under your pillow to snatch a knife, and she turns to face the door, holding the blade with some skill, but she's panting hard, scared and filled with adrenaline.
What do you do?
The soft cotton is hot from my breath. She smells... hard to explain. Like home and I inwardly groan. I clench my hands around her middle again, a silent ask that she not move. Not go anywhere.
Once the adrenaline spike fades my head pounds. I moved too quick, my headache back. I curse letting Marigold go.
"I need to go see what that was. Did you bring a change of clothes for me, by any chance?" Getting up sounds like the worst idea in the world, but a gun just went off in my bar. That sounds like something I should care about.
I swing my legs around and sit up, dizzy from effort.
Stripping out of the yellow dress I had on, I slip on my dark navy dress, I look around. She didn't grab a coat, but I notice one of Esco's jackets on the uncomfortable to sit in, but comfortable looking chair and throw it on over my dress. Just in case.
Like a newborn deer on fresh legs I stumble, barefoot, past Marigold - heading for the door.
Marigold hovers near, that knife still pointed at the door. Which you open. When you step out of Esco's room and slowly enter Diamond, you're treated to the sight of Norvell's corpse by the bar, and two feet of gore spreading outward from there, on the wood floor, a table, and several chairs. JD is standing near with a bucket, he's just started to clean it up.
Act Under Fire to keep cool seem appropriate here, Sierra?
Sierra, you see this bit of horror, your morning's already full of weakness from the alcohol and vomiting. You've got nothing left to puke, luckily, but the gorge rises nonetheless. Marigold slides up to pull your head to her chest protectively, you feel the chill of her knife pressed harmlessly against your back as she holds you. And she smells so good, Sierra. She's so soft. Your insides twist up in a knot of revulsion, attraction and pain, all folding over and over inside you.
But you don't scream. Gloriana would never let you scream. No matter what you saw, no matter what she did, you never screamed. And you don't know, either.
Marigold's soothing you, Sierra, and it feels good and comfortable and weird, and you're weak, physically weak right now, defenses down. Then she pulls you up, lifting you into her arms to carry you back to bed.
What do you do?
All my feelings, all of them boil down to one prime directive: Stay.
When Marigold lays me back down I keep a loose grip on her hand, tugging lightly, hoping she follows me down. I don't know what I want, just that I want it. I want sleep, I want sanity, I want Glori, Fleece, freedom, Esco - I want to be able to deal with things like a normal person, I want to be real. It's all conflicting.
Norvell. Poor Norvell. I can't think about that now. Toys don't think about that sort of stuff. Death and disaster, that is for things that are real. Toys just have to worry about being loved, about being used.
Marigold carries you without complaint, her body stronger than you'd assumed. She puts the knife on a pillow near you, and settles you down on Esco's bed. When you tug at her hand, she slips onto the bed and cradles you against her, smoothing your hair and gently rubbing your back.
She sings you a song, Sierra. Something old, something from outside, but it wasn't a lullaby there. You recognize it, first time you've heard it in years. What's the song, and what does it remind you of?
I was halfway through memorizing it, when Glori heard me practicing. She was weirdly furious at the time, ripped the sheet music in half, and threw it in the fire. It was the first year of her adulthoood, I was only 15, and she wasn't quite at the point of using my pain to calm her nerves. Still, she had all the music checked after that, "desensitizing" she called it, claimed she didn't want me to be upset.
When she gets to the end I sing along with her, breathing normally again, a weight lifting from my chest. "Oh, the landslide will bring it down..."
[For Cary]
What do you do?
Once you get through Velveteen Rabbit once, she asks for another. But then there's a knock at the door. What do you do?
I wonder if the body has been picked up yet. A cold shiver emanates from my gut.
It doesn't matter, like Fleece said, it's not like he's a person anymore. And, I don't really belong in Esco's. Making a fool of yourself doesn't give you permission to lay in someones bed all day.
When the knock comes, I freeze. Marigold's words repeat in my head - Nothing's safe, Sierra." Frack, I really should have gone to my room, before the story. I bring my legs up around Marigold, shielding her as much as possible, while reaching over the bed to grab the knife.
"Who's there?"
Pixel's accent is familiar to you. Is it an accent common to one of the houses, or a particular district?
"We were just leaving." I call back, releasing my hand on the knife and gently moving 'Gold off me. "We can read more at my place, if you want, but I... uh... I should get going."
Marigold agrees, rising off the bed after you, following you to the door. When you open it, Pixel is waiting there, a few steps back, eyes downcast, hands crosses in front of her. It's a very familiar pose, Sierra.
I look at Marigold and shrug in sympathy. "Maybe later?"
I look at Pixel, at her hands and her posture. Biting my lip, I breathe out through my nose. "Pixel, you don't - you don't have to keep that up. If you don't want to." I swallow, "So, who is this customer? What is he looking for?" I move forward, gesturing for her to show me the way.
She walks slightly ahead of you, down the hall to the fourth door on the left, but pauses before opening it. "The customer's name is Balls. He agreed to a package, and now he says he is unsatisfied, and refuses to pay."
"What was the package?"
(Rolled: 2d6+2. Rolls: 2, 1. Total: 5)
She opens the door, and Balls, wormy, sweaty rocksucker that he is, is standing in the room with bloodshot eyes and a very angry face. He has a big shiny six-shooter in his shaky hands, and he raises it at the door when he sees you and Pixel.
What do you do?
[Sierra is using arresting Skinner]
As you expect, now, Balls watches that slip of skin you've revealed, and the gun dips lower. His mouth goes slack as he gapes at your arm, at you, like you're some magical being.
It's the same look they all had, Sierra. Right before Esco slit their throats. Every one of them.
I let the fabric slip down my arm from its own weight as I release his hands from the butt and trigger, twisting the shooter, so it's facing Balls. Backing up, the jacket slips into my hand and I let it fall to the floor.
I raise the gun up, now a few feet from Balls, and look at Pixel from the corner of my eye.
"Pixel, why don't you come in, let's discuss this like rational people, hmm?"
Balls takes a breath, then starts when he sees the barrel of his own gun. He blinks, then puts it in his belt. Pixel walks in, but she's definitely standing behind you.
"She spit on me." Balls says angrily. "I'm not payin' a whore that spits on me."
"Alright, well, what was the original deal Mr. Balls? What exactly did you ask for?"
Balls shifts on his feet, suddenly a bit shy or embarrassed or something. He moves around to close the door, which could be a threat, right. "I wanted Pixel. You know, her services. I didn't want to be choked, stepped on, then spit on. Your girl's got some issues she needs to work out! You should be thankful I don't ask you for money!"
"So just so we are clear, you did not ask for a disciplinary package? Who took your request, Mr. Balls?"
(Rolled: 2d6+2 . Rolls: 4, 2. Total: 8)
Balls sets his jaw, looks past you to Pixel, "She took my order and she knows damn well I didn't ask for that fuggin' package!"
Nope, he's lying. Pixel, though, she's not even defending herself. Not one word.
A cruel voice in the back of my head laughs, No? You just let other people do it for you then?
I have no idea what Pixel is doing behind me. I'm humped here. I have to get to the door. I have to get her out from behind me.
"I am sure we can work something out, Mr. Balls." I say as I nudge my jacket on the floor, making it look like an accident that I kicked it slightly in front of me. "Pixel, love, can you please grab me my jacket?"
If she comes out in front of me, I am pushing her further in and placing my back to the door - I'll get out to the hallway if I can. If she doesn't, well, I still have some clothes on...
(Rolled: 2d6+2. Rolls: 3, 1. Total: 6)
You know servants well enough to know Pixel is terrified right now, even though she's swallowed it all up. She lied about this trouble because she's afraid Esco or JD would kill Balls, and she can't handle more death.
The biggest enemy here is the fact that almost twenty folks have died around here in two days and these people are freaking the hell out. This is only the smoke. There is a fire going to burn.
I lower the gun and look at the customer in the eye. "How about this, we call this a disagreement. You can have this service for free, but in the future you pay up front and clear all requests with management. And as for the gun - " I say lifting it, "it's mine. Since you waved it in my face and threatened me and my girl. We savvy?"
I hope he accepts my deal, because I don't want more red on the floor and I really need to talk to Esco and JD.
What do you do?
"Hey, hey - you are alright. Everyone is fine. See?"
She looks down at your feet, holding the supplicant pose you have honed into your soul. "I am deeply sorry. Please forgive me."
"Pixel, Pixel, I am not your master - no one here is your master. I know that rocksucker was lying. You are fine and I am going to make sure weapons don't make it into these rooms again. Okay?"
Her pose is so familiar it makes me ache. I've held that pose for hours, I have found pain, pleasure, and solace in that pose. She's expecting me to order punishment and I want nothing more than for her to stand up straight.
Phoenix has a vicious punishment tool called a cane. It's a springy stick that stings worse than anything I have ever experienced. They'll cane the bottom of your feet, your knees, anywhere sensitive. I don't think we have one, but if we do I am burning the thing.
"Please, Pixel stand up straight. In the future, I just want you to be honest with me, OK? I'll look out for you."
(Rolled: 2d6+3 . Rolls: 5, 5. Total: 13)
Then, Pixel stands up a little straighter.
What do you do?
Sierra,
As you're talking to Pixel, trying to reach her, Esco comes in, followed by Sasha. Pixel looks up into your eyes, and there's a little flicker of something there. Recognition. Understanding, maybe. Hope?
Then I open Pixel's door, and step inside. It looks like Pixel and Sierra are chattin'... About what, I dunno... Looks like whoever had beef that Pixel needed help with cooked off. I step inside, and close the door behind me. "Pixel, wot the fek's this then? Who told you to go to Sierra if you've got problems with a client?"
I've never been so unhappy to see him in the entire time I have been living here. "It's fine Esco, I've been talking to Pixel here and we got an understanding. She can come to me anytime - if you want to talk to her later, you can, for now I need to talk to you. Alone."
I smooth down the fabric at Pixel's shoulders and bend down to pick up Esco's jacket off the floor. "I borrowed this, I hope you don't mind. Came in handy."
I look up at Sierra, exhausted, and take my jacket. "Sierra," I answer, calm but wary, "If you're takin' me up on my offer, I'd appreciate hearin' it from you in person — but we ain't got time for that right now... Fippers are coming."
Which I understand, since I woke up in Diamond all I have experienced is death, blood, loss, and fear - he's right - I never accepted the deal. Maybe I shouldn't.
And then he mentions the Fippers and one overwhelming urge hits me. Run.
"What?"
She came. I knew she would. I knew...
I clutch Esco's jacket like it's a lifeline. How can he be worried about Pixel coming to me on a rumor when what I told him would happen has happened. They are coming to fix the camera...
or take me away...
or kill me...
Esco is in front of the door. I just want him to get out of the way. I just want to get out of this room.
I must look like a deer, hearing danger, but unsure where to dart. Half of me wants to jump in and ask, is there anything I can do. The other half wants me to run as far as I can. Just keep running deep into the mines. hide.
I look over to Sierra, who's lookin' spooked, and bite my lip. "What do you want from me right now? How do you want to play this?"
It would save me from making a decision. I'd be letting Gloriana control me again, except, this time with my consent. My consent. Frack.
"Help me. I don't want to go back." I watch my hands flounder in front of me. "She sent people, for one camera? I don't want her to see me scared. What do I do?"
"C'mon — let's put on a show for these arsehats. We're gunna sit there with our new security in every corner of the Diamond, JD with Cooker at the bar, and we're gunna let them know we know exactly why they're here. They ain't got shite on me. I wanna see what they do when one of their precious cameras goes missing, so I know what to expect when they all go missing."
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