You arrive outside Doghead's place early in the afternoon with your pack full of the canned food you "found" in Hugo's boys' packs. There was a solid month's worth of food there (OOC: for argument's sake, say 1-barter worth). It has been two weeks, how much of it have you eaten? (OOC: again for argument's sake, it doesn't have to be your only source of food... Though it is a shitload of food) I presume you're dragging Shan along?
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[Rue]
Yeah, Shan's along. I want 'im ta get some credit. An ta stop lookin at me that way, like I'm some awful person. Damn, I hate when 'e does that. Who the hell does 'e think 'e is, judgin' me? At least I know Clare, an 'e knows me, too. Clare aint so bad, but.
Shit, what was I talkin' 'bout? Frakkin Shan, with 'is accusin' eyes on me. Well, I'm givin' a full barter fer penance, so he can just suck onna egg er somethin'.
I'm trompin' right up ta Doghead's door. A-hole's gonna gimmie an earful, I just know it, so's I'm ready ta chew nails.
Shan is not amused, "Fuck you old man. I told you I never stole your shit."
Doghead looks to you, "You said you'd find my shit. You done stallin' soz I can shoot that fuckin' stealin' cockstick?"
[Rue]
I thought Ize steeled fer this, but Doghead just gets ta me, ya know? I lookit 'im an hole uppa hand. "Doghead, shut yer trap, ole man. Shan didn't take yer food! I found the frakker who stole yer shit, alright? They're dead now." I drop the bag o' cans, not hard, just drop it in fronta 'im. "Been a bit, so's I aint sure what's yours an what was 'is. Pick out what was took from ya, make sure it makes ya whole. An stop goin after Shan, 'e's a good man, an 'e might stick around if shitheels like you would treat 'im better. Alright? An from now on. Lock. Up. Yer. Shit."
How taboo is it to talk about your past before Monroe, Rue?
[Rue]
I aint tole anyone not ta talk 'bout it, they just rarely do. I figger theyze payin' me ta do what I did, 'cept ta others.
I really wanna shoot this frakker. Heze workin' my last good nerve. I drop down on my haunches, so's I can look 'im inna eyes. I say, real slow an calm, but sure it's the last bit o' calm I may have, "If ya lost seven cans, then take seven cans. Make it right, Doghead. I can't get yer cans back, alright? Shan didn't take 'em, an I said I'd make it right. This is the best ya get. An I aint found no cigs, so take somethin' fer that, too."
Hey Rue, which would you prefer? That Doghead not blame Shan for the missing goods, or that he not blame you for them?
[Rue]
I'd rather 'e not blame Shan. I can handle 'im gettin' on me, since I did roll on 'is shit fer Harrow. Who aint showed up yet, so Ima a real fool this time. I aint blinkin'. C'mon, you sunnuvabitch, take the cans an' shut the hell up.
Shan doesn't hesitate. He puts his hand on your bicep, and whispers, "Fuck this guy... Let 'im wallow in his own bullshit." He looks content with how this went down, though he's obviously still not overly happy you didn't name the actual thief. "You mentioned a floatin' Winnie?" he adds with a a confident smirk.
[Rue]
I wanna tell 'im off, but then Shan's pullin' me back. That's good nuff. I walk on with 'im, kickin' a rock that wasn't in my way 'zactly. 'e asks 'bout the Bago an I catch 'is smirk. "Yeah, darlin'. It's a piece. Wanna swing by my place an grab some shine an walk out 'ere?"
I figger 'e won't turn it down, so I'll head on back to the church, grab my shine, which is 'bout out now. Lock up, an then we go on. I got my armor an Shelly this time. We're heading near Hugo's frakheads, so I don't wanna tempt fate.
"What the hell is that?" He asks, almost whispering — like talking too loud might disturb the anomaly and send the winnie crashing into the lake.
[Rue]
"I bet a line's good eatin', tho." I go on with the talkin'. Man, a big ole cat like that? I don't tell 'im I ate cats afore, since I think 'e'd not be happy with it. 'e seems ta like 'em. I like 'em too. With hot sauce! heh
An then 'e gapes at the floatin' Bago. 'e asks me what it is, like I didn't tell 'im already. I elbow 'im, "Told ya, Shan. Floatin Bago." I pull off my vest, drop it in my bag an put it an Shelly o'er where I can hide it inna tall grass. "Theyze a ladder in the center, but yer gonna get wet." I hand 'im the shine.
"Zat a problem, darlin?" I look up at 'im, my eyes squinted inna light o' the sun.
You got a plan out here, Rue? Shoot the shit? Get wasted? Get a little somethin' somethin'?
[Rue]
Well dayum, Shan's abs are lookin' mighty fine. A marathon, ya say? I like ta do a bit o' runnin' myself. Gonna hafta see if he's got my kinda stamina, yeah? heh.
Didn't have mucha plan. Best not ta plan too far with folks. I think I'd like ta carry me some shine up 'ere an chat with Shan fer a bit, drink some, too. If 'e's into some somethin' somethin', I aint atall against it. But fer now, I think I'll see what the what.
I shuck my big ole pants off an drop 'em inna bag, Carry Mag with me ta wade inna water ta the ladder, then shimmy up it. It's a rope ladder, takes a good bit o' upper body strength ta get up 'ere, but I done it a dozen times.
Once I'm up 'ere, I reach inside an put Mag onna dashboard, then lay onna hood. I figger 'e's up 'ere with me. I get up close ta 'im, an lay so's I'm lookin' at the sky. "Shan, are we good now?"
He hands you the moonshine. "You're a fine lookin' woman, Rue. That ain't even the moonshine, I think..."
[Rue]
I take the shine from 'im, down a good ole gulp er two. When 'e tells me I'm fine lookin', I smile at 'im. I let the part 'bout 'im "not thinkin'" it's the shine. I wanna be complimented right now. "Well, Shan, thank ya. Shine er no, yer 'bout the sexiest damn thing in Monroe. But I bet ya already knew that, hunh?" I know 'e know 'e's purty. I mean, hell, them abs alone. Dayum.
The bottle's passed back, an I scott a lil closer, so's my thigh's up against 'im. I roll up so's I'm on my side, lookin' at 'im, put a hand on 'us leg. "Shan, darlin'. I'm real glad we're okay. I feel like we hit it off afore the shit with Corbett. I'm... well, hell, I'm sorry 'bout that. Yer a good man, Shan. I like you."
He puts a hand on your thigh, gently massaging it, and adds, "jus' so happens I was thinkin' about how much I like you." He leans down, and plants a short kiss on your lips. A forward gesture, to be sure, but he pulls back ever so slightly to make sure you're OK with it.
What do you do?
[Rue]
When 'e leans o'er me, my chest puffs up a lil. I aint gonna lie, I hold my breath fer a second, not scared, just excited. I mean, I think I knew weze gonna hook up, but still, that first kiss is sweet an I wasn't sure. Ya know?
Shan pulls back a lil, an I smile up at 'im. I reach up with my left hand an run it through 'is hair. "Yeah?" I say it all curious-like. "How much izzat, Shan?" I'm lookin' up in 'is eyes, 'e's got the most kind brown eyes I e'er seen. I slide my leg up o'er 'is, still holdin' the back o' 'is head. I want 'im ta kiss me some more.
Seems he likes you enough to sleep with... Do you?
[Rue]
Well, I aint thinkin' 'bout sleepin', but yeah. I wanna sneak back in that bed I laid in all lonely the other night, but this time, I'm bringin' Shan with me. "C'mon, darlin'. I got somethin' ta show ya." I tell 'im all husky-voice like.
[Rue]
When 'e comes on back, I take 'im by the arm, an practic'ly throw 'im onna bed. Well, I don't think 'e's fightin' me, so it's more like, I direct 'im. Once 'e's layin' 'ere, I'll slip off my shirt, didn't wear no bra today, so's I'm just down to my lil panties.
I slide up on top o' 'im, back ta kissin' fer a bit, but my hands are roamin'. Afore long, I'm workin' at 'is pants, tryin' ta get 'em offa 'im. Then I kiss my way down that sexy tummy o' 'is, pausin ta enjoy each lil muscle. I'm laughin' as I go, relishin' the taste o' 'im.
All the while, I'm lookin' up, lookin' in 'is eyes as I keep workin' down. Down till I see how 'e's ready fer me. I'm laying halfway offa bed now, 'tween 'is legs, lookin' at his purty brown eyes as I lower my mouth on 'im. As I'm givin' 'im all the pleasure I know how, I keep lookin' at 'im.
An then I'll reach fer his hand, all callused from years o' hard work, an I pull it ta my head. I'm tellin' 'im, with my eyes an with my whole body: Guide me, darlin. Yer in control. Just take what ya want.
That's when Shan grabs you by the hair, pulls your mouth off his cock and shoves a gun down your throat. He pulls the trigger before you can react. Things go black for a while. You wake up three days later next to Shan's rotting corpse. Your throat is sore, but undamaged. You're starving, and thirsty. It's pouring rain outside, and you're pretty sure the bago is upside down.
What do you do?
[Rue]
Holyfrakshit! I jerk awake an scoot onna floor back away from Shan's body. What?
Oh frak this. I look 'round fer Mag, an try to stay way from 'is body. I ferget my shirt, an look out the door o' the Bago. Are we still up inna air? Shit, they aint no "we".
Am I?
"The fuck're you doin' up there?" He calls out to you.
[Rue]
I don't know this guy. My throat hurts. I got Mag. Aint got no shirt. Shit. I aint botherin' ta answer 'is ass. Ima find my shirt. It's o'er Shan's body. What the... I didn't kill 'im. 'e kilt me.
I died. But I aint dead. Zat what Jones meant?
Mag goes in my teeth, I'm headin' down the ladder. I'm gettin my vest on, an gettin' my pants, an Shelly an I'm headin' back ta Monroe. An I'm cryin' right now an I don't care, aint nothin' I can do 'bout it. I wanna throw up, but I aint gonna do that. I wanna get in my lake an wash it all off. But it aint ne'er comin' off, I fear.
[Rue]
I aint runnin'. I aint some scared lil girl no more, runnin' 'way cryin'. Once I got Shelly in my hands, if that fisher wants ta jaw at me, then 'e can jaw at me. I don't look like I'm in no talkin' mood, tho.
Where'm I headed? Church. I'm headed ta the church, gotta check on my gear, see if any o' it been stolen.
Now that he's closer, a name comes to mind... This is Mill, a local woodsman who occasionally supplies fresh meats to Monroe. He likes his privacy. Nobody knows exactly where he's set up camp. Rumor has it he was struck by lightning out fishing once... His coat certainly seems to back that story up.
Here he is, with his busted coat.
[Rue]
I look o'er at 'im, still a lil freaked out from wakin' up like I did. "A-hole! Ize in 'ere with a-a friend, an somethin' happened. Knocked me the hell out, an kilt 'im!" I just want 'im to go 'way. I just want 'im ta fergive me an hold me. I don't know what I want. I'm still walkin' home. To the church.
I kilt Shan. The Anom got in 'ih head, made us see stuff, an I kilt 'im.
He throws down his fishing pole to keep up, and adds, "c'mon... You ain't got shit fee protection out in this rain... You'll catch fever. C'mon back to my place a minute, 'n I'll get ya home."
[Rue]
I stop walkin', turn 'round on 'im. I wanna yell at 'im, er somethin'. But 'e's right. I'll like ta freeze in 'is cold an wet.
I can't b'lieve Shan's dead. I really liked 'im. 'e wasn't the one who shot me. If 'e was, it was 'cause I deserve it.
"Where's yer place, Mill?" I ask him leaden. I wonder if 'e's gonna put a gun in my mouth, too.
[Rue]
I'm follain' 'im. I still got Shelly in my hands, she makes me feel a lil stronger. I keep seein' Shan in my head. I see 'im layin back, enjoyin' me. I see that look on 'is face when 'e pulled out that gun an' shot me. I see 'is dead eyes on me when I woke.
"Rue Wakeman." I answer 'im. The cold rain an the mornin', it makes me chill. I feel all frakked and twisted up. I just wanna curl up an have a good cry. But I aint gonna do that in front o' ole stranger Mill here. So's I folla.
[Rue]
"Thirdie showed me the Bago. We slept up 'ere once." I answer 'im, 'cause talkin' helps a lil. "An 'en me'n... Shan." Sayin' 'is name hurts like a punch inna gut, an I'm alla sudden thankful fer the rain, 'cause my eyes well up. Frak, I didn't wanna cry. Why'm I so damn weak?
I wonder... Shan gonna join the gang in my head? I dunno how I feel 'bout that.
"'Nomalies are tricky things... They mess with your head. Sometimes they don't do nothing, but sometimes it's just this big ball of things people want. Dead people, alive people, doesn't much matter. It's like a maelstrom of thoughts and desires, moving through the world, wreaking havoc." He nods back towards the lake, and the Winnebago, "either of those "Thirdie" or "Shan" folks still up there? We can't have folks up there... It makes the 'nomalies worse."
This is what his camp looks like, for the record:
[Rue]
I step up under the tarp, an use the towel to dry off. I'm just goin' through the motions, not scrubbin' er thinkin' 'bout it. "Shan's up 'ere." I wanna say 'e's dead, but I can't get the words out. E'erone I care fer dies. Most o' 'em by my hand. I wonder if I kilt 'im, too?
"He..." I say when I'm a lil dryer. "He oughta be buried, I reckon."
[Rue]
"Yeah," I answer, but I don't feel it. Am I with 'em? "I'm just a hired gun, 'at's all." I know I just woke up, but I see 'is sleepin' bag and I wanna curl up on 'ere. I feel drained, and awful. Maybe I oughts stand out inna rain and cry 'is shit out.
He pulls the draw string on his pack taught, and looks at you expectantly, like that was the payment he expected for the raincoat, and now he expects you to leave.
[Rue]
Norm'lly, I'd jaw at 'im some more. Aint like he can dismiss me er nothin'. Right now? I aint got the energy. I just wanna go lay in my bed. Don't think I'll get no sleep, but I wanna lay still an think.
I pull on the raincoat an' go. I walk with Shelly's barrel aimed at the ground. She needs cleanin'. Somethin' fierce. Don't know how long Ize out. I feel hungry, but I don't wanna eat. I ache. All o'er.
Out here, inna rain an alone, I cry fer Shan. An fer me. I cry 'cause nobody can see. An I need it.
I just wanna go home. Monroe's the closest I e'er had ta one.
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